33 and a Foot Update

With every birthday, I tend to reflect on the past rather than the future. But on November 12 this year, I tried to be more positive. Instead of thinking, "I'm 33...what the hell have I accomplished?" I shifted my thoughts to, "I'm 33...what does the future hold for me?" I realized that thinking about the future can be both exciting and scary. There is so much opportunity for me to create an exciting path for myself both personally and professionally. But it's scary to think about all the potential road blocks I will encounter. I try to avoid setting goals for fear of disappointing myself or others (like my goal of having two children by the time I turn 35; doesn't look like that will happen). I am better at the short-term goals, like "I'm going to get to the gym 5 times this week." That kind of stuff I can handle. But I have also learned to stop beating myself up about what has or hasn't happened. I just need to live in the moment, be present in each situation, and just try to make the best of things as they come along. That's all we can really ask of ourselves, right?

So the day after I turned 33, I saw the Podiatrist about my toes. He looked at the X-rays and found bone spurs in both big toes. This means I am most likely facing surgery. In the meantime, I am trying out some arch pads to see if that alleviates some of the pain and inflammation. If so, they will make me permanent Orthotics for my shoes. If not, surgery here I come. Not only will the doctor need to remove the bone spurs, but my joint is apparently too long in both toes. So he will need to take out some bone as well. This will prolong recovery. So I'm praying these foot pad things will help and I can forget about surgery for awhile. With all this going on, I feel much older than 33. But I'll push through it. And try not to break a hip in the process.