So the therapist and I have hashed some things out over the last several weeks. One of the discoveries I've made is that I'm a "caretaker" in my relationships. I put other people's feelings, wants, and needs before my own. As a result, I have neglected myself. I don't think this is unusual, especially for women. However, if you look back at some of my relationships, particularly with men, I seem to fall victim to taking on their pain, issues, etc. as my own. I feel the need to "fix" them and in the process, I lose who I am. This was a painful discovery...but one that will help me to grow and be better to myself and my spirit.
As I move forward, I need to learn to own my feelings. They are mine...they are not wrong, they are truth. I have a habit of second-guessing myself which is partly a learned behavior and partly a habit I've gotten into. It's a habit I need to break to regain confidence in myself.
Therapy is an odd thing...a complete stranger is able to figure you out in a matter of a few sessions...and I've been trying to figure myself out for 34 years.
As I move forward, I need to learn to own my feelings. They are mine...they are not wrong, they are truth. I have a habit of second-guessing myself which is partly a learned behavior and partly a habit I've gotten into. It's a habit I need to break to regain confidence in myself.
Therapy is an odd thing...a complete stranger is able to figure you out in a matter of a few sessions...and I've been trying to figure myself out for 34 years.
1 comment:
Thank God for therapists!!!
The last time I went to one, it was with a specific issue that I wanted to fix. In the first hour alone, I realized there were about 18 gazillion other issues MORE important than the one I was focused on. Zoinks. But like they say, knowing is half the battle, and knowledge is power.... you know.
I'm glad you're going and I'm glad its helping. Stick with it, babe.
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